Cleaning Out.. Part Deux

Back online. I didn't tell my husband that I journal about weight loss online so I sort of feeling like I'm keeping something from him when I'm on here. Like I'm cheating or something. I don't know why. I tell him how I feel about weight stuff but I think it's starting to annoy him a little that I get him to pay for all these things that should be helping the weight come off and nothing happens.

He's actually been pretty great about everything though. I have to say I'm pretty lucky in that respect.

Back to the depression that is me looking through old skinny clothes... I just want to be able to wear them now! You'd think that it would snap me into submission but no, I ate crap again today. Spinach dip, eggos, homemade WW-er friendly pizza, and it's only 7:30 so I'm sure I'll be hungry again in a little bit.

Another thing that's buggin me? So I will be going back up the NW where I'm originally from for the holidays. I'm fatter than ever so the thought of that in itself is a little worrisome. But family friends who heard I have a thyroid issue (I had mine removed in August) are all starting to apparently tell my mom, "oh Em must be losing TONS of weight. That's what I hear about thyroid medication, the weight just FALLS off." Hm.. you think I'd be on WW if that were true??

That is such a myth! Just to let you all know. It doesn't work that way for everyone. My thyroid medication pretty much just makes me sick to my stomach. We're still ironing it out, upping my dosages, etc. But I've been told not to count on it to make me lose weight.

I weighed 247 today. At least I'm back down a couple pounds. But I'm not exactly being a psycho about it like I should. I think I was only back up last week because it was "that time." I won't really feel like I'm on the road to success until I get around 220 I think. Right now it just feels impossible with the holidays coming up.

Alright, I'm starting to feel like I'm just on here complaining so I'll come back on in a couple days.. hopefully with a more positive message and some hope!